when winning feels like losing

I had a soccer tournament this weekend...and lets say it went good and bad.

The good thing was we won! Yesss!!!! But the bad thing is, we played horrible. So the win is NOT as fun when you know that you played like crap to get there. It is soo much better to feel like you earned with your hard work and dedication. But we didnt really..i mean we put alot of hard work into it but we just werent clicking with each other. It sort of sucks in a way, like we didnt exactly earn it.
I hate that in life when you win at something but you feel horrible about the win. It feels like you lost. That you'd rather lose than win because you would feel happier knowing that was your place. It's almost a better feeling losing but knowing you played your heart out and knowing you played your best. When we accepted that trophy I felt out of place taking pictures and seeing all the smiling faces around me.
So this weekend didnt really seem all that worthwhile to me. It's really disappointing knowing that you won when it felt exactly like losing.