tick tock

Heart beating in time with the clock. Everything normal and fine. Then you walk in and I feel as if my heart will pound out of my chest. I silently hope with embarassment that he wont hear my pounding heart or notice the scarlet blush that creeps onto my face. His eyes, dancing in the light, catch mine and I forget to breathe. As my breath is caught in my lungs, I cant help but to notice that my intake of breath has caught his attention. He gives me a questioning glance, and I exhale, letting all my emotions out without speaking. His laugh, like a peal of bells rings my ears in upmost pleasure. My breathing becomes labored and I close my eyes, wishing everything would just go away. Spare me of all these feelings! This isnt right, It cant be. A realization hits me with a bang. Could I possibly...? No. Never. But...with my heart still beating like I just ran a marathon, I must have feelings for him. He leaves the room and my staring eyes follow him in wonder. With my breath back to normal and my mind finally being able to actually function, I think that I never, ever could have feelings. I was just having an emotional tidalwave hit me. I walk out the door and find my thoughts straying to him. it cant be, it just cant.